For a long time, I did the thing of conforming to the communities I thought I wanted to belong to.
I bent myself into uncomfortable, unsustainable shapes. I learned the language and said the expected words, many of which I could not really hold to in my heart. I performed the expected rituals at the allotted times and in the prescribed ways.
Life experiences have shown me that people are people. We accept and reject others almost at whim, for any reason and for no reason and for the basest of reasons. When the community gave up on me (or when I felt like they had, for a while, I gave up on community entirely. I couldn’t keep with the work of trying to conform.
But I long for a community. Not one that I have to bend myself to meet their desires, their needs. But one that accepts me, as I am. That accepts my family, as we are.
It’s surprisingly difficult to find. Or, has it always been like that?
I’ve been doing some thinking about the kind of group I want to connect to. I have a few ideas:
- The group should really, truly, welcome all people. Indiscriminately. No matter their background.
I don’t care their gender or what pronouns they want to use. I don’t care who they date or marry. I don’t care how recent their birthday was or how long ago it was. I don’t care where they were born or how much money they or their family made or make. - The group should value peace.
- The group should support one another through celebrations and griefs, through times of plenty and times of want through needs of masking and freedoms to hug.
- The group should seek out the input and leadership from among its whole, great variety (see the first bullet). We each have a unique perspective to contribute to the whole.
- The group should pursue justice relentlessly.
- The group should hold none as “first among equals”.
- The group should show mercy as often as the opportunity to do so arises, in whatever form that opportunity presents itself.
- The group should seek to raise up those who are falling behind in whatever way or measure might find the want: economically, socially, mentally, emotionally, and so on.
Those are just first thoughts. Perhaps you have some of your own? What would you look for in a community.