Confession

This former preacher hasn’t prayed in years. Not even at the dinner table. (The kids took that over in my silence.)

The truth is I’ve been angry. This wasn’t what I was sold. I did all the things. Marked all the boxes. Completed all the prerequisites. Walked the journey.

But, like Madonna’s Eva Peron in Andrew Lloyd Webber’s Evita, I did not wind up where I intended to be.

And I grew angry and resentful. I grew scared. Did I mishear? Did I make up what I thought was my calling? If I messed that up, could I even really hear God?

So I gave up even trying.

I left the disciplines of scripture reading and prayer. I gave myself over to whatever and wherever I found myself. And I nursed my anger. I withdrew from church. I could not find a place to serve. I gave up even wanting a place.

And I spent years this way.

But today, I prayed. For the first time in years. I don’t really remember how. I’m not sure I ever really knew.

Today, I prayed this simple prayer. Over and over.

Lord Jesus Christ, Son of God, have mercy on me, a sinner.

I feel like I can spend a lifetime with this.

Maybe I will.

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Cost of Winning

As we pay the price of obedience, we can be sure that every unanswered prayer, every short-term loss, plays its part in the long-term certainty of victory in Christ. It’s just that we never realized that winning could sometimes hurt like hell.

  • Pete Greig, God on Mute, p. 172

Whatever you are facing, whatever darkness life brings your way, remember Romans 8:28. The end is already assured. God wins. And so do all on His side.

All things new

A great Steven Curtis Chapman song.

And it applies to this blog, as I am sure you can see from the theme that is in place. This will be a work in progress for a little while, then the content will start coming.

Feel free to leave a comment.

UPDATE

I have uploaded my entries from my other blogs that I worked on. This will be my one home from now on (see here).

The Management

To anyone who is reading, I wanted to let you know that I have invited a good friend of mine to be a contributor to this blog from time to time (whenever his schedule allows and his thoughts provoke). So, welcome Jon to the discussion.

The Management.